twelve

“I can’t. It’s his birthday on Friday.” “So what?” “What do you mean so what? It’s his birthday. He wants me there, so I can’t.” “He actually wants you there, or you want to be there so you volunteered?” Frowning, C.C. set the lingerie down onto the pile of silks and satins. Crossing her arms,…

holes

My mother told me that if I study hard today, if I work hard today, then tomorrow, I’ll be able to enjoy life. If I suffer through the next 7 years and work my ass off, foregoing any pleasure or amusement, the thirty, forty years thereafter will be worth it because that’ll be when I’ll…

yesterday

I realized yesterday that the reason I don’t sleep – beyond that of insomnia – and the reason why I don’t eat properly is because in a sense, it’s a way to cut myself but in a fashion that isn’t obvious and possibly, arguably even worse because if taken to the extreme, I may very…

eleven

“So he’s your cousin?” “Oh, yes. But he’s more like a brother to me than anything. We grew up together.” “I see.” Interested, Shirley glanced beyond the brightly lit kitchen and into the living room, where the men talked amongst themselves, all the while keeping an eye on the children. “What was he like as…

ten

Suzaku only helped despite the risk of Lelouch’s ire because he wanted only the best for his friend and knew that, no matter his indifference towards his “arrangement,” the situation could only end poorly. So the sooner he got out of it, the better, which was why Suzaku encouraged Shirley to be more proactive with…

nine

“Does it bother you?” “Why should it?” “Because men like to own things, not share them.” “That may be true, but you’re a person, not a thing, so I don’t really see how it would apply to this situation.” She smiled at him in such a way, he stopped slicing the carrot. “What?” “This is…

eight

“You should think about asking him out.” “I don’t think he’d say yes.” “Why not?” Baleful, Shirley glanced at her colleague. “I don’t have to tell you about his reputation, do I? Also, I heard he just came out of a divorce.” “Yeah, but I heard he’s the one who asked for it.” “Who said…

seven

Milly, of course, had never really approved of some of C.C.’s decisions, but seeing as how she was only her friend, and not her mother, chose to refrain from rebuking her excessively over her life choices. That having been said, the moment she suspected a change in the nature of her relationship with one of…

six

“Alright, fine.” Setting his fork down, he leaned back in his chair. With a look of exasperation, he finished chewing and swallowing before giving in to her. “If you really want to know that badly.” Leaning forward, she smiled. “Who was she?” “She was a bailiff. I asked her out to dinner after one of…

long story short

Without getting into the tricky details and the complications and complexities of this matter, I would like to be in love again. I don’t but I do. And I don’t want to be because I believe that every relationship and every human being is just disappointment waiting to one day reveal itself. But I do…