Conjugality

“Milly, I need you to be honest with me because I know C.C. isn’t going to be, and I need to know.”

She stared at her friend’s husband who tightly grabbed her wrist.

“Who is he?”

They both knew who he was referring to. Even without raising a description, or their slight encounter, Suzaku knew that his wife’s closest friend would know who he was asking after. Hell, she might have even been there when the two had met; he figured C.C. had stopped most of her activities after. His wife was selective, and he knew she loved him. Or at least had and that his “passing” would affect her.

“Milly.”

“I can’t tell you. It’s not my secret to tell.”

Impatient and angry, he glared at her as his grip tightened. She winced but remained silent. Irritated, he grit his teeth as his nostrils flared. So she was going to protect him too, was she? She was going to hide him, his wife’s lover, from him too, wasn’t she? While his wife went off to go sleep with this guy, whoever the hell he was, Milly was just going to sit there and protect them even after everything he had suffered through, huh? Huh?

Suzaku, let me go.”

“No,” he hissed. “Why should I listen to someone like you? I almost died because of people like you. Because of people like you, I had to go through hell for three years, I lost my fucking arm because of people like you, so no, I’m not going to let you go! I’m not going to let you go!”

Now screaming, he violently shook her. The doors opened and nurses rushed in, and in his head, a quiet voice told him that he was being unreasonable – Milly hadn’t done anything wrong. She was just being a good friend – but it was drowned out by the roar of anger and injustice and the inability to understand why no one would talk about the thing that everyone knew.

“Where is he?” Tearing himself away from the arms trying to restrain him, he screamed after her as she walked away. “Tell me where he is! Don’t you fucking dare turn your back on me! I deserve to know who he is! Don’t you dare!”

But it was too late. She already had, leaving him alone once more as the darkness closed in until he had no choice but to give in and sink into the depths of the abyss below.

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One thought on “Conjugality

  1. Sean O'Brien says:

    This is really is an unfortunate situation for all involved. Even worse since I don’t think you can truly accuse anyone in this web of having done anything wrong. The answer to Suzaku’s question is both simple and hard: Having thought he was dead for years, C.C. finally began to move on after meeting someone. Granted, there are all sorts of ugly thoughts that Suzaku could draw from that, and no doubt would in his state, but that doesn’t make them true.

    He even does seem to understand the situation to a degree. His question seems almost more of a gauge of what kind of man his wife had become involved with as much as it is a simple clarification to have the truth of the relationship spoken aloud.

    I can understand Milly’s stance that it isn’t her tale to tell as this is something C.C. should explain herself. Hell, as ill-conceived as the idea is, Lelouch simply coming in and explaining it all might work if C.C. isn’t going to. Though given Suzaku’s current state there is certainly a risk of violence.

    He’s definitely going to need a lot of therapy and aid from people around him. Dude clearly has PTSD or something in that family, which seems to be coming out as rage and violence. Sad for someone who I imagine was a very sweet person before all this. Though he at least seems to recognize that the way he’s acting isn’t good but just can’t help it. His frustration is warranted I think since he does deserve to know exactly what’s going on. Really someone just needs to just lay it all out to put an end to this game of secrets.

    Thank you 🙂

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